Beth

I talked to Beth today. It was nice she seems to be okay. I had to check on her and make sure she was okay.

Mom

Sorry I have not written in awhile busy busy. No lazy probably. Well, first your brother told me to call and I gave him my number. He said that he was trying to be in my life and your other daughters. I don't get it. So I let him speak He told me that his family has drifted apart. He also said that the others are not talking. I remember when it started to drift. Not when Gloria passed. Cal did it want them involved. But when grandma your mom stated to pass. It got crazy. Laroy in his jail or prison stuff. Then when grandfather passed it got bad. When you passed now they don't talk at all. But what can u say. So he asked if he can give me photos of you. I said yea. He did not know about the stuff going on while you we're in the hospital. I told him your brother was a duche bag and had the police investigating. Annoying and disrespecting you and us. Then, he said he didn't know about that. Okay sure. But I still have not seen the photos ... Hmm

Mom

It's crazy I miss you and I hope your doing good up there. Trying to stay positive is hard. But I am determined and I miss you

June

June takeover me. It's funny people thank i don't look for something. I feel it's there I just have to fight for it. I applied for everything everyday. But it's hard too see things. I see stuff differently now. I dunno maybe you were pointing it out a long time ago and I was not seeing it. My cycle is pretty bad today.these cramps areawful.

Mom

Yesterday was the third year of your passing. I dunno what u would have done. I was sadden and hurt and taken back for a few days.

Letter to you from Carla

I read your post about your mom the other day and my heart went out to you. I asked the Lord what could I possibly say when we just can't provide the answers that only He can give? I'm reminded to simply say "His Grace Is Sufficient". Everyone asks the question of God, "Why?", only to receive what seems to be a silent answer. Yet, as we continue through life's journey, we find ourselves just simply trusting in the fact that HE is GOD - He's Sovereign, Faithful, Trustworthy and so much more. He gives more grace as pain increases. After a while, we find ourselves hurting a little less and growing more stronger. Don't ever allow yourself to feel guilty, blame yourself or think there was something more you could have done to prevent what God called to be. His will is just that - His will! You are surrounded by love and He will never forsake you. You will see her again and believe it or not, she and I will love each other, laugh and talk too (Lol). I was very saddened at her passing myself - I wish I could've let her know how much I really appreciated her for raising Tasha and being there for her - She and your dad did an awesome job with all of you. As she was there for me, I am here for you sweetheart. Of course, I could never take her place (I wouldn't try), but I've gained a lot more wisdom since she knew me and I don't hesitate to give it to her girls! Love you much - you're a very special young lady - don't ever change!

Mom

Where you with Isaiah today when he graduated? Dad thought he saw something ... Hmm just wondering ... Miss you a lot