Beth

I talked to Beth today. It was nice she seems to be okay. I had to check on her and make sure she was okay.

Mom

Sorry I have not written in awhile busy busy. No lazy probably. Well, first your brother told me to call and I gave him my number. He said that he was trying to be in my life and your other daughters. I don't get it. So I let him speak He told me that his family has drifted apart. He also said that the others are not talking. I remember when it started to drift. Not when Gloria passed. Cal did it want them involved. But when grandma your mom stated to pass. It got crazy. Laroy in his jail or prison stuff. Then when grandfather passed it got bad. When you passed now they don't talk at all. But what can u say. So he asked if he can give me photos of you. I said yea. He did not know about the stuff going on while you we're in the hospital. I told him your brother was a duche bag and had the police investigating. Annoying and disrespecting you and us. Then, he said he didn't know about that. Okay sure. But I still have not seen the photos ... Hmm

Mom

It's crazy I miss you and I hope your doing good up there. Trying to stay positive is hard. But I am determined and I miss you

June

June takeover me. It's funny people thank i don't look for something. I feel it's there I just have to fight for it. I applied for everything everyday. But it's hard too see things. I see stuff differently now. I dunno maybe you were pointing it out a long time ago and I was not seeing it. My cycle is pretty bad today.these cramps areawful.

Mom

Yesterday was the third year of your passing. I dunno what u would have done. I was sadden and hurt and taken back for a few days.

Letter to you from Carla

I read your post about your mom the other day and my heart went out to you. I asked the Lord what could I possibly say when we just can't provide the answers that only He can give? I'm reminded to simply say "His Grace Is Sufficient". Everyone asks the question of God, "Why?", only to receive what seems to be a silent answer. Yet, as we continue through life's journey, we find ourselves just simply trusting in the fact that HE is GOD - He's Sovereign, Faithful, Trustworthy and so much more. He gives more grace as pain increases. After a while, we find ourselves hurting a little less and growing more stronger. Don't ever allow yourself to feel guilty, blame yourself or think there was something more you could have done to prevent what God called to be. His will is just that - His will! You are surrounded by love and He will never forsake you. You will see her again and believe it or not, she and I will love each other, laugh and talk too (Lol). I was very saddened at her passing myself - I wish I could've let her know how much I really appreciated her for raising Tasha and being there for her - She and your dad did an awesome job with all of you. As she was there for me, I am here for you sweetheart. Of course, I could never take her place (I wouldn't try), but I've gained a lot more wisdom since she knew me and I don't hesitate to give it to her girls! Love you much - you're a very special young lady - don't ever change!

Mom

Where you with Isaiah today when he graduated? Dad thought he saw something ... Hmm just wondering ... Miss you a lot

New Grandchild

Your grandma again kid five for Sarah. She is in recovery. So it will be a minute. I know your looking down on her with Ma, papa, grandma and grandfather and Gloria. Just keep her and your granddaughter in your prayers. Amazing she getting her tubes tied like you always wanted. Father had a talk with her. Yeah I know. Tomorrow is the day. I hope so I have an interview and result. Thus stress is annoying .... Busy busy I will keep you posted. Part 1

Mind ... Moms day

Happy belated moms day. It was do hot on Sunday. Me and sister went by to see you. It was nice dad went before us. I truly miss you. This pain is unbearable.

Hello

It's me your daughter. I keep trying To find a connection or just someone. I see what you went through with father. I just want a connection. I have togetherness with people and that's it. I wish you were here to talk to me. Ugh me...

March 26

Today, was a odd day. They fixed the smoke alarm. Took the trash out and prayed today. Mediated actually. Still need to go spend time with you. I miss you. Sarah sends me this text asking me about something Celeste keeps saying. She never said thank you. Well you know her. I was kinda sad or angry. It's so hot today.

4/15

I am with Ma today. I thought about you today. And I have an angry friend. I did it to myself. But I don't get things at times. I love you lots

3/27

I started reading my boundaries book. Wow I learned so much from the first chapter that's I am amazed. I finished the other book. Called stranger. I need to find good people and out them in the spots of life.

March 26

Today, was a odd day. They fixed the smoke alarm. Took the trash out and prayed today. Mediated actually. Still need to go spend time with you. I miss you. Sarah sends me this text asking me about something Celeste keeps saying. She never said thank you. Well you know her. I was kinda sad or angry. It's so hot today.

03/25/2013

It's been awhile since I written you. I miss you. I been thinking about you. It's the meaning of family went away. It's crazy

Mom

Hmm .. I must of not saved my letter. I miss you today. U hope father visit you today. It's crazy you been gone awhile. I always think about you and think its going to get easier. But it just harder.

2/23/2013

its hard to go on and think you are not still here. I miss you and has positive vibes.

Valentines day

happy valentines day to one of the only people i really love in life. I miss you and love you

Sunday

I went to visit you today. Its raining really bad. Are you sad.is everything okay... i hope so... I  love you...

January 12

Well, I moved sister 3 the other day. She was okay. she told daddy thank you. She more in the ghetto prego with kid number three. Strange I think. Me, Reed, and little tony moved her. 30 minutes to load and one hour to get off. Crazy... Well that's that half. Love you lots and miss you

1/6/2012

Well, today was one of those days. Woke up not feeling like Me..But Its okay pamprin ands meds covered that. I was tried all day.